escribo. amo. vivo.

lilaclustre

who says routine isn't fun?

mon - (no classes) the whole day at the shop, maybe go to the gym, work

tue - school, shop, work

wed - school, shop, work, maybe baclaran afterwards

thurs - school, shop, work, church

fri - school, shop, work, maybe a date?

sat - go out with family and work

sun - go out with family, work, maybe go to the shop, maybe a date

that's basically how my life is nowadays but i'm not complaining. it's cool. more than cool, even, because i'm lucky enough to be with the people i love. 

lilaclustre

i'm happy to say that my mandarin is improving by leaps and bounds BUT my pinyin still sucks. it's just sooo...hard! i'm determined, however, not to let my japanese and spanish go to waste so i make it a point to practice writing and translating stuff once in a while. spanish is easier to practice because i have loads of spanish e-books (as in stories)...japanese is a bit hard, but i can manage...

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there's this girl in school. she tells everybody that she's japanese but when people ask her which of her parents is japanese, she says neither.

aaaand then, she keeps on speaking in japanese - just simple words though, like "arigatou" and so forth - even if the person/s she's talking to obviously doesn't speak japanese. she'll always apologize afterwards and say that it's just because she uses japanese all the time so it's hard for her to remember to speak filipino / english (i know for a fact, however, that she speaks straight filipino and she's ever so slightly struggling with english).

it doesn't end there. she goes to school one time - or maybe it was more than once - and she suddenly starts taking out one japanese product after another (assorted food stuff) from her bag. then she reads the labels out loud while her eyes goes left and right to see if someone's paying attention to her.

I WILL USUALLY FIND THIS GIRL FUNNY and not be irritated at all if only for one thing: we were classmates once, and i missed (as usual) the first few sessions. when i finally managed to attend it, i asked her if we had a quiz. all she said was "yes" and she was indifferent afterwards.

I KNOW she doesn't owe me anything, but i just think she could've been a bit...i dunno...more helpful? because i'm always helpful to people who are new in class. having been an irregular student in csb, i know what's it like to be with a roomful of people you don't know. if you see someone new, you won't lose anything by being helpful if the new student actually mustered enough courage to approach you and ask for help.

so anyway, nothing really, i just wanted to get that off my chest. i'm sorry if this strikes others as bitchy, but i don't like her.  

lilaclustre

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lilaclustre

but now, it isn't. this is the only subject that i have to study the whole day for.

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i feel bad. not only did i not do as well as i hoped in my fil midterms, i just realized as well that it's the first day of my period today. this is just not my day. not my day at all.

lilaclustre

families are not perfect. they never are. and mine is definitely far from it, but let's not go into details. i love my family to death, but sometimes, you get to a point where you ask yourself - do i really deserve to have this kind of family?

but every time you ask yourself that, you should always remember that there are other moments when it's them who's asking the same question, and you're - or in this case, me - that's the cause.

so whenever you feel angry and it's a family thing - do whatever it is you do to release your anger - just as long as it hurts no one that is - and just...let it go. that's life, you know. that's life. 

lilaclustre

today's the 3rd day of my no-rice-diet (if you really know me, you know just how hard this is for me). i'm also sticking to no-fry foods. yeah i know, double bummer. if this doesn't work, someone's head gonna roll...

soooo anyway, what really pushed me to dieting was all my relatives saying how "fat" - oh yeah they said that to me straight - i got. their eyes were always on my arms whenever they said it.

honestly speaking, i don't think i'm fat. i've got the measuring tape to attest that...BUT, with our family genes, whenever i gain weight, it all goes to my arms, and since that's the first thing people see, i look fat to them.

but, like, early today - make that yesterday (friday) - my sister and i had to go to school in civilian clothing for our cha-cha midterms (i'm the girl, she's the boy) and TWO teachers had nice things to say about my supposedly nice figure (you no worry, me no go to details). but maybe that's because i've got my arms covered.

you see...you see...but since i'm still affected with what they're saying...i'm dieting.  and you know...it's actually not as hard as i think, but what makes it so is the lack of proper food in my house - everything's either rice or fried food and that obviously wouldn't do.

lilaclustre

tomorrow is V-day. i'm exciiiiited. not really because it's v-day per se, but simply because it gives US another reason to celebrate. my 1st ever valentine was with allen - that was 5 years ago - and it was also our 1st monthsary. but after that, i made it a point that v-day for us would be spent with our families (or my family, to be exact, coz i don't think his family celebrates it much).

soooo, that's it. i'm excited because we - the family and allen - get to celebrate it again. we'll hold it @ byte i.t. coz all of us love to play c.s. as well. and each of us will bring our own food. i'd like to contribute cabbage - coz i'm still in a healthy-diet-phase - but my family might kill me so i guess i'll just bring taco salad once more. my sister's preparing salisbury steak (not that i can eat it, sh*t).

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i'm super happy abt my grades. i'm the highest in theology 4 (47/50) and i scored fairly well in filipino - 90 - although i wish it could be higher. and what's so funny is that i write for a living, but my filipino essay writing skills suck. i've no idea how to write a sintesis or presi correctly. aysus.

tom, let's hope that i get the same luck as well with the rest of my subjects.

for the first time ever, my sister and i will be giving away tikoys to our teachers. pa-good shot hahaha 

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7th day - or one whole week - of my no-rice, eat-healthy diet. it has made me realize that i truly don't eat because i'm hungry or i can't help it but simply because i love food. do you get the difference? it's like an addiction. a controllable one (oxymoron, i know) but still an addiction.

lilaclustre

And there are different levels to it, but I'm particularly referring to cocky people - you know, they're basically nice GUYS, but the way they act and talk just rubs other people the wrong way. It's different from being arrogant and brash or much worse, egoistic.

And really, most people would be irritated with cocky guys, but since I grew up with a herd of them - many of my cousins are cocky for a variety of reasons - I learned to understand that it's just the way they are and they don't mean any harm with it.

That's why I always feel sad whenever there's a cocky guy - who's inherently good, really - who'd end up slightly and subtly being ostracized because other people just can't get used to the way he acts. And you know, you don't have to be annoyed. You could just let it go, you know, and think about his finer qualities. Sure, he's cocky, but he'll also be the first one to offer help...unlike others. Instead of being annoyed, you could just...find it funny.

It's like being irritated with a genuine conyotic - she's not trying to be one, she just is.

I wish people would be more understanding. The world would be much, much better if they were.

lilaclustre

some people can't leave without their mobile phones. others can't exist without their iPods, but i'm gradually finding it difficult - not impossible, but just extremely difficult - to continue living without a PDA.

it's just so much more convenient to use than a laptop. yeah, i get to store more files in my laptop, but it's not e-book friendly.  i know it's definitely possible to read manga scanlations with a laptop only and not with a PDA, and i admit getting crazy over those comics for a while, but my first and most important love was, still, and always be books.

sooo, it's time to save money once more and buy a PDA - palm's great, but the last i used - tungsten E - severely fell short in the battery dept. this time, i'll try using an iPaq.

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speaking of e-books, i'm soooo happy with the latest batch i've got. i got one excellent learn-spanish book, then another one that's filled with different spanish text arranged accdg to level of difficulty. it's definitely going to help me improve. then i found two learn-kanjis as well, and best of all - a learn-latin coursebook.

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lilaclustre

SATURDAY, we ate @ citybest and it's one of those times that i was literally feeling sick because i was sooo full. i didn't eat rice, but i felt honor bound to eat a major part of the 2-way peking duck dish because i was the one who ordered it. and then my dad gave me a shellful of oyster - it was huuuge - so i felt honor bound to eat that as well. ha!

then, at around 5pm we went to luneta....to fly kites! haha. it was my first time to get to fly one. well, okay, actually i still didn't get to fly it because they nylon string seemed so flimsy and i was scared that i'd accidentally let go of the kite..so there. but it was fun!!!!

after that, we played counterstrike at - where else - byte i.t. and it was fun fun fun again.

SUNDAY, we went to rustans supermarket along katipunan. yeah i know. so far from our place, but we were waiting for len to finish her ateneo orientation. oh. and i got to try out the  ham and cream cheese sandwich from le coeur de france. yuuummmmy! i see that pastry shop all the time, but i've never paid attention to it. *big mistake*

and after that, it was rest, work, rest at home. before i left for byte i.t. with allen, i got to watch just a teensy weensy bit of kris aquino and james yap's interview with korina. and hope's @ GMA. i don't think i believe hope's version. i've got lots of experience with #2s (queridas if you will) and she seems the type to lie through her teeth just to get what she wants. but...i could be wrong. so sorry if i am.

but still, kris aquino made a really good point. if the other girl didn't want to hurt anyone, she could have just waited for kris to give birth first before doing anything.

all of them may be at fault...but the unborn baby's totally blameless. 

anyway, allen and i had to open the shop at sunday night because his friends were coming over - all in all, there were 7 of them, including j's gf, C. haha i think it was like C's first or second time to play and it was so funny. she kept shooting and shooting at this guy, not knowing that they're actually on the same team. and then sometimes, she'd accidentally throw a flashbang / smoke grenade in front us so we'd all end up blind.

i hate playing @ mansion though. i never win there. and since we're talking about CS maps that i dislike, might as well include deathmatch and awp_map in the list. yeah...i'm anti-closed spaces.  

lilaclustre

i find it funny (in a strange pathetic way) that i feel absolutely guilty for eating three spoonsful of rice. weird, right?

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J and i finally got to report in filipino 2 today. it was shit. nothing bad happened, but it's hard reporting in filipino because there were some words i were unable to explain unless in english and i absolutely hated that. if my report's in filipino, i want to do it perfectly and completely in filipino! yeah, perfectionist is my middle name.

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the teacher loved our thesis topic though: Ang Persepsyon ng Mga Babaing Intsik Edad 14 - 17 sa (name of filchi high school) ukol sa "Filipino-Chinese Marriage".

yeah, i know the term "intsik" is not politically correct, but i didn't choose it - our teacher did; she was the one who entitled our work, all we did was propose the topic. and i don't mind. i know she didn't mean anything w/it.